I DID IT!

I am so amazingly blessed in my life. I have a beautiful daughter, no matter how much we but heads. (she is just like me...which can be both good and bad at times) I have a husband who loves me, no matter what. I met him after I had Carly and he both accepted US and loved us ALMOST as quickly as I loved him. I have an amazing set of parents. They love me, they take care of me and they wouldn't have it any other way. I could never ask for better friends than those that I have. I love them all so much. My Bone Marrow Donor saved my life...she too has a beautiful family. All of these people have surrounded me. Rallied around me. Given me UNCONDITIONAL love and care, shoulders to cry on or just lean on.
How do you adequately thank people for being their for you, when if not for them you wouldn't have had the will, the reason, the strength.
I have had some daunting life experiences I guess you could call them. I just celebrated my 5 year anniversary of my bone marrow transplant. I don't know how to explain why I made it other than I had to. There are so many others out there like me though that haven't been so lucky. For them I grieve. Sometimes I feel completely and totally overcome with sadness because I NEED a reason why.
Alot of people in my life have said there is a reason for everything. I never understood that...what could the reason be for me getting sick at 21?
A few months ago a nurse that coordinated my transplant, my stay in the hospital, all of my insurance issues called me and asked me if I would talk to a lady that had Hodgkin's Disease and like me was going through it for the third time. She was to have a bone marrow transplant in May. She gave me her phone number and I called her. We talked for a couple hours. She had many questions, some about the transplant, some about what happens next. I tried to answer them all as honestly and positively as I could. After talking to her I felt a huge sense of accomplishment I guess you could call it. Like I had done something that truly mattered. If that is "the reason" -my being able to help someone by answering questions then I could without a doubt do it over. If I can help ONE SINGLE PERSON, then it was all worth it.

Fat Feelings

Beefy and Bulky
Heavy and Husky
Obese and Hefty
Stubby and Tubby

Bad Feelings

Deplorable and Horrible
Slow and Gross
Hate and Sadness
Pitiful and Morose